For me it is all about trying to accomplish the rest of our school year. I don't want to drag it out. I want to get everything accomplished that needs doing so that I can have a break. Homeschooling stresses me out some months more than others and this year I just cannot WAIT for it to be done!
I am not a morning person so I dont think that helps matters. I just love getting up in the morning and being able to take it slow. This year we have had the goal to start school at 8:30am which has been really great for us in many ways but it also means me having to tell each child each step of getting ready and day after day it drives me nuts. I want their teeth and hair brushed, fresh clothes on, breakfast eaten, and for them to be all ready for the day. They dont seem capable of doing these actions without verbal reminders....how they will survive as adults and not look completely unkempt and not starve to death is beyond me. I am hoping at some point something will click in.
This month I have also realized more and more how this pregnancy and birth has affected my body in some very extreme ways and I am trying to figure out the steps I need to take to help my body heal. It means my body is often in pain and uncomfortable. Feeling this while nursing so many hours a day is hard but I am trying to keep gratitude in the forefront of my mind ~ although often failing miserably.
My yard is in its full glory in May. I have blossoms of many hues in my back and front yard. This year I have physically not been able to do any weeding but there has been a bonus in that I have not been able to uproot flowers I may have thought were weeds before. My yard is a balm to my soul, it nourishes and blesses me. I am so SO thankful for it during April and May and every other month but the glory that it is in these months are amazing.
In May I can also see an end in sight to all the driving I have been doing each day during the school year to take children to their various activities. I am such a home body and getting everyone in the car to go somewhere takes a lot of effort for me. I can't wait to have slow days where I don't have to try to remember where I need to go. The days can meld together and I can feel more at ease sitting and nursing my baby...
May is a glorious month here where I live.
I am so thankful for it.
I hope your month of May is full of beauty and promise. The year is skipping along on happy feet at the moment. Everyone's life is so full. There are the light filled moments and the moments of such despair and darkness.
Sending you love,
Tansy
