I Once Wished

 I once wished for a bed of a certain size

And was given one

With bedding included.

I once wished for boots ~ a certain kind, a certain hue

And there they were ~ one of a kind!

Beautiful, delicate and the perfect price.

I once wished for a small piece of art ~ no one knew ~ but it was given to me in love

By my husband.

And I once wished for a book by a certain someone

Wishing someone would think of me

Thinking I would like this book

The way I had thought of others

And someone did!

I once found the perfect mug ~ and did not buy it in a certain moment, from a certain place. I never mentioned it to a soul.

And someone (my mother) found it in such a crowd and thought of me and gave it to me! It felt like  miracle. It was.

And once I prayed for a child ~ my soul in agony ~ and someone thought of me ~ and chose me~ and gave me her child.

And in all of this life

When my heart felt lonely or unloved

Or shattered

My daughter plants me Violets and says nothing

And there they are in the Spring

My heart bursting with joy

Violets! Who? What?

I find a house of dreams and get to live in it

And I am reminded that

In the pain of many moments

My deepest wishes, my secret hopes

Have most often been honored

Heard.

All these wishes

Gifted

My hearts hopes

Loved

Thoughts From Inside

 There are a lot of dishes to wash

A lot of dishes to put away

That's what runs through my head

And the sun is illuminating the new grass growing

Violets are blooming

And so are the children

But the dishes are this looming chasm

That never end

But don't magically disappear

You know?

And my clothes are threadbare

They are comfort

Like my mother always wore

And I said I wouldn't do this

But here I am.

I want to wear flowers

And feel alive

It's already time to make lunch

How will I ever get outside into the sunshine

Whole days go past

Weeks

And I am still inside

It's felt like years

The inside work

Grinding away

Creativity and energy

And

Some. Things. Must. Change

Lately In Picture Form

 There have been birthdays, fun moments with aunty, dressing up dolly and being twins, basketball, rock painting, escaped cow sitings, and beautiful moments. I am not taking as many photos as I usually do but as Spring is on its way hopefully inspiration will kick in. 

March is almost complete and April comes soon. We have Violets blooming, Daffodils as well and the Hycinths are almost opening. Snowdrops are almost finished. There have been a few warm hope filled days and then cold and wind and dusts of snow. Spring and the joy and beauty it brings is such an inspiring time. I am so thankful for it.

A Beatiful Year

   I have not written for a while. Christmas was a time of preparation and organization and work! Then January came and with it a month of sickness and little sleep. The month dragged and spirits were low. In February not much changed and the days were long. The weather was fitful and we felt a bit isolated and fitful ourselves. There was no creativity in me. I just needed to survive being inside day after day with four children and doing school work and cooking and cleaning that never ended! We ended the month with snow and cold weather which brought a bit of sun and honestly that brought hope! Playing in the snow is fun! We also had a birthday party as my youngest turned four and that was joyful and lovely. We had family over and helium balloons and decorations and the Snow drops were blooming outside. We even found the first Violets in our front garden!

  Now March has arrived and with it tiny yellow Crocuses in our front yard, some sunshiney days, mud in the back yard, and the desire to expend energy outdoors. It feels miraculous. This morning I vacuumed the front entryway and stairs and hallway and bedrooms and made raspberry lemon muffins and jello and drove a child to where she needed to be and just felt so thankful to have made it to March. There was sun shining outside as I did these small things.

So the year flies by. Each day has its challenges and it joys. Keeping children learning, being kind, and expending energy is the goal it seems. The end of the day brings a sigh of relief. 

A sigh of relief. 

This will be a beautiful year because we are in it. Nature is coming to life. New leaves are budding, and under the earth bulbs are doing what they are called to do. Spring is such a time of celebration and beauty. If you are in the area keep your eyes open. Look for new life. It is all around you :)

xo Tansy