This entire year so far I have been pregnant. On midnight as Christmas day began I decided to take a pregnancy test. As the house was completely peaceful and a gloriously happy day would begin not many hours later I decided to see if I might be pregnant. I had had really intense hormonal symptoms for days already and felt off. So I took the test late at night and it was positive! The emotions that filled me were absolutely ones of joy and thankfulness. I finished up my Christmas duties and tried to get a few hours sleep before everyone rose with great excitement for the day.
For some reason, I woke up at 6:30am and found my husband alone on the couch. I asked him if he would like an early Christmas gift and he said yes with a question mark surrounding the answer. I went and got the test and gave it to him. It was a beautiful way to start a really special day for our family.
So from Christmas day onwards, I have known I was pregnant. I am forty one years of age and this is my eighth pregnancy. I was the sickest I have been in a pregnancy for twenty weeks. That was intense but not at all unexpected and I took it one day at a time. I had vomiting, daily headaches, intense nausea and on top of that I am more newly diagnosed with celiac disease and so regular gluten comforts of food were not accessible to me. It was not the funnest time but I made it through.
After I was done being sick (the week symptoms started getting better) my husband and I undertook a huge project. We moved my parents from their current home to another town. Our children and my sister helped but mostly it was the two of us. We packed, sorted, physically moved furniture and supported my dad in hospital and my mom at my home. It was a very intense time and took about a month to complete.
After this my energy tanked completely and iron deficiency symptoms hit with full force.
It has been one day at a time one step at a time trying to keep people fed and laundry and dishes caught up. Other than that everything else has been a bonus. My husband has supported where he could, my sister has been a hero, and my children have had their moments of deep kindness and empathy which has been deeply appreciated. There has been encouragement from different parts of the world when I needed it most from caring friends, and although it has been a rough road for me in so many respects it has been worth every second.
The baby in my womb is active, responsive, sweet and already empathetic and sensitive. I am so beyond thankful for the gift of this experience once again. I am so thankful for this life inside me and this life I am privileged to live and experience.
As we prepare to welcome this life into our family and discover all that this child was meant to give and be and bring we hold hope for a safe birth and for a healthy child.
I know I have not written much this year. I hope that explains why.
Love Tansy
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