June is merrily wending its way through time and for many mothers of school age children it is the month where your feel like you are running flat out. Anxiety is often high and everyone is burnt out from the school year. In my country there is a two month Summer break starting very soon and at the end of the school year there is so much going on as the year is ending. There are graduations, celebrations, school outings, parties, performances, exams, projects due and more. By the end of it everyone is emotionally and physically exhausted and honestly it isn't the best start to a Summer.
I admit this year I am beyond burnt out. There has been so many health issues in my family including myself, there is a new baby to nurture and care for, a needy four year old who is not the baby anymore and is saddened by that fact, so much school to finish, there has been a lot of fighting among my children, a lot of anxiety, and I am sleep deprived and dealing with our house needing a lot of repairs, mice, fleas and ants infestations! Each day seems to bring some sort of new health issue or other issue for me to try to problem solve and deal with. I have been taking so many children to so many appointments it is crazy.
My mind starts to whirl. I start to feel like I can't take another moment. I am dizzy and exhausted and overwhelmed.
Today was an especially trying day at times. One of my middle children had a very bad fall, twice! and hurt the same parts of her back. She has open wounds, and as I was trying to take off the bandages today she fainted from pain. It was so overwhelming for me. There were many other things I was dealing with and through it all nursing and nursing a growing baby, trying to help my mouth heal from a pulled tooth, and more.
Then my husband came home and shared a story about a co worker he has recently been driving to and from work. This man has been rescued from Africa after spending ten years in jail, four of them in a solitary cell, in the dark every single day in a very hot climate, being given one small bun and a cup of cold tea a day...for four years. Why was he in jail? He was a pastor and shared his beliefs. He is safe here now along with his family but one of his children was too ill to escape at that time and is still not with him.
It helps in moments like this to stop, breathe deep, and let thankfulness seep through your pores
Thank God I am free
Thank God I can worship
Thank God for the sunshine
For happy giggles
For medical care
For beauty
For miracles
For the every day life I have
Yes there are trials here and pain and hardship but there is so much good.
Thank you for the reminders
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