Thrive

 In my home Covid 19 has brought about much introspection and change.

I hope you are finding your new long term normal where you feel you can thrive even in the midst of so much confusion and shifting rules. Every single person having their own safe way they feel they are operating and that not being the same as the next. 

I have been thinking on that word lately. Thrive. What does it even mean? I feel like in my family of origin thriving was not something you did. You survived. That is what you did. You survived as best you could day in and day out. You found simple pleasures if they were to be found but over all you were doing your best to keep on going to get to that next day.

I am plain sick of this. Sick of surviving. I want to thrive. Maybe you do to?

What does thriving even mean? Well I think just like every single person has decided how they individually must survive this Covid 19 time in history, it is the same for every person in their thriving state. It is totally unique to that soul.

I just wanted to put that out there. That I desperately want to thrive. That from the time I was my youngest self I have looked around longingly at those who seemed to thrive, that seemed to have some sort of connectedness to safety and joy that I did not have. I have wished to feel it. I have sought it. 

I still am seeking. And that matters. It is important. It is not a needy ridiculous longing that I will never achieve. It is something that holds much value to me. 
I am strong in this resolve and I will be victorious.

:)