I don't know about you but this year feels like it is going by quickly. Before I know it my youngest is going to turn three. This will signify the end of an era in my life. I also will have a child turn sixteen this year and she will be able to learn to drive. My youngest son will have his last year before he turns thirteen. This year is half way done and what have I done in the last six months?
I mean I have taken care of a lot of sick people pretty consistently. I have had my husband mostly frustrated with me. I have had a lot of days where I felt like I was not able to keep on going but I did. I have had my body just feel weak and tired and sick a lot. It's not been my best year let's just say that. I have felt so anxious and so undone. This is nothing new for me but I think this year it's been pretty intense. I have just been a mess.
And then there is the flip side of all of this because no matter how I am feeling and no matter how hard I perceive things to be....there is always that light and there is always good.
This year my seven year old started piano lessons that my parents are so kindly paying for. She is an absolute natural. In two months she has finished her first book and is halfway through her second book. She has written two short songs she can play on the piano and is in her first recital in a few weeks.
This year my fifteen year old will go to school for the very first time and will begin her last year of school. It has been SUCH a roller coaster ride for me and a completely unexpected one. However she is going. Today we tried to pick out courses and the testing and interviews are complete.
This year my oldest daughter will have her second baby. Her first baby is just starting to talk and it is the sweetest thing. He also has such expressive eyes and is so observant and empathetic. He brings us so much joy.
This year the Roses have bloomed so beautifully and around my town I have favourite Rose bushes that I love. Do you have that? Do you know in your town where you have a favourite Lilac tree or Rose bush or something similar?
This year my oldest son went to my sister's a few times and came home happy and feeling more capable. This is such a gift.
This year we started to go to a church as a family and that has been such a blessing.
This year I started an online book club with my sisters and it has been a positive happy happening to look forward to each month. We can't often meet in person so we all face time each other and chat about the book we are reading. Each month a new person gets to pick the book but they are books that are from our childhood. This month I am choosing Jane of Lantern Hill by LM Montgomery for us all to read.
This year my friend gifted me a foot massager machine and it has blessed me so much.
This year has been sad and hard and exhausting but at the same time it's been absolutely lovely. I hope you are able to see those lovely parts of your life however hard and exhausting it may be.
Blessings to you
Tansy
