Complacent

 Complacency. 

This is something I struggle with in regards to my body and my health in some respects.

A month or two ago I was gifted a foot massager. I started to use it every day and also went for some walks and all of a sudden my body was losing its mind. 

In hindsight I was also sick with a virus as well but didn't realize it.

All of a sudden my face was on fire. So incredibly red and inflamed. My feet were hurting, my hands and feet and legs were swollen. I felt like toxins were flooding my body and I was being poisoned. It was horrifying and I thought maybe I would feel like this forever. I don't appreciate that I do that to myself but it's a survival technique. 

I started to try to detox. I took pills for my liver, went of all carbs and sugar and was drinking water with lemon in it and healing teas. Slowly things started to improve slightly but then allergy symptoms hit. 

I went to my naturopath doctor and she told me that I am sort of allergic to life right now. My body just has been going through too much stress, anxiety, overwhelm and grief. It has formed so many sensitivities to almost everything.

So that's fun.

Where does complacency come in? I have known for YEARS that my body was struggling and have accepted it for the most part. Is my inflammation high? Yes it is. Is my cholesterol high? Yes. Is my iron low? Yes. Are my bones crumbling away? Yes. Have I been working to eat better for my cholesterol and take things to lower it with consistency? No. I just walk around hoping that somehow things will improve and I am complacent. 

There are humans out there that are not complacent and my hat goes off to them, but I am complacent. It is a sad, awful way to be.  

Just this week I finally started exercising. I am hoping to start to lift weights and also once again cut down on sugar and carbs. I want to drag these heavy bones, this carcass, away from the heaviness that weighs it down and baptize it in health and life and light.

May you find strength to step out of any complacency you are in and to walk forward into health.

xo