Reaction

 There are moments where I write something that is purely reactionary and also from a core place of pain

This is one of those writings

I have said

' I feel'

So.many.times

'I need'

Often

Broken record often

And it's a grief

To see

And see again

That you CAN'T see me

OR hear me

Truely

For so many reasons

The complexity astounds me

Overwhelms me

And you tell me

It's all about me

Accusations

When I try to speak about it all

And I quietly inside

Die a little more

Knowing beyond all shadows

It can never really be about me

Because in this world

Your heart has been so wounded

It holds itself so close

Every action towards me

Is a supreme sacrifice

You feel almost heroic

And I feel gone

Stripped

Gypped

Exhausted

Sad

Completely hopeless

And that

Is good

Because seeing what is

That brings clarity