A misty day here. Sometimes I absolutely love misty days. The mountains are shrouded and sacred. The many trees and their myriad colors of green ~ dusky dark greens and lighter fresher ones all intermingled with mist and mystery. We went for a walk and I had not gone out for a walk in days ~ had not really gone out into the beauty. Right now one of my children is saying, 'Why do I have to be the one that ALWAYS has to listen' and another one is REFUSING to eat and I nursed the baby for hours last night.
Getting out today was beyond refreshing. Where we walked there was a massive dog. I am five foot two and came up past my hips. My son had her running in stride with him. He connects with animals so quickly when he meets them. They seem to not be able to resist him. It reminded me in an instant of riding my horse without a saddle or bridle and knowing she knew where I wanted to go because of our connection.
I have been reading books by George MacDonald and once again they are shifting things in my brain that need to be shifted. He writes with this knowledge of God that is deep inside me but I can never vocalize ~ just feel. I had some years of my life where I spent hours outside every day and I spent many hours alone outside and it was an opportunity to experience the worship and energy that creation exudes with all its brilliance and passion. I could feel it and see it and hear it in moments when I was riding my horse or sitting out in our fields or by our creek. Now that there is so much technology around me and I have this deep restlessness. I am so distracted, my nerves often raw, and I DON'T REMEMBER....that if I could just get in my car, go drive somewhere a bit lonely, a bit quiet and take it in, it all floods back. The Creator is good and taking part in all He has for us is good. Embracing His way and His life is best. If you don't like WHO you know Him to be you probably don't know who He really is. Keep asking, keep searching and look in the right places....usually in the fields, the woods, the water, the mountains and the places He has prepared so you can be remade.
Such a good read!!!
ReplyDeleteI never go outside alone or just because and one day (not too long ago) it hit me. I get refreshed and healed and reset while I'm outside. I get to be energized and healthy and myself.
I'm 31 years old and I almost wept that for almost 20 years I bought the lie that it was unsafe for me to go outside. I've spent so much time gazing out of my windows wishing someone would call me and drag me out of doors.
This reminded me again of my ah ha moment.
Thank you!