Ice Cream and Goats

   Probably once a week I drive to Triple O's and go through the drive through and buy a massive blueberry milk shake with whip cream on it. I may sometimes go more than once a week. Then I drive away sucking back that shake and hoping for the glory to fall.

It is comfort in a cup.

Comfort

  We all learn what comfort is in some way shape or form from our parents. Sometimes it means we need hugs and snuggles, or a bag of chips and a good book, or a bowl of popcorn with MandM's and a movie, or maybe we need to go sit out in amongst the trees. No matter what we choose for comfort I have decided that comfort is comfort and comfort is GOOD. This is different than drowning our sorrows. Drowning brings death.

Comfort is different.

   My milk shake is comfort to me and as I drive and the milk shake disappears by the time I am half way through I feel more at peace. I start to center in and feel like I am coming back to myself and by the time it is done I look at the cup in disbelief and can't believe I did that again, and yet  deep down I feel way better.
  I remember talking to my counselor about how bad it was that I comforted myself with food. She gave me a look of compassion and asked me how comforting myself was ever bad? She asked how much food I ate and what it was. In the end I realized there was no shame in it and nothing bad at all. This truth was a beautiful thing.

  I was writing to a friend today asking me if she needed me to bring her ice cream and goats.
See if you show up at someone's house with comfort, if someone brings you comfort, it helps to stop the spinning for a minute and help you feel loved and safe and cared for. I bring her ice cream sometimes.
  I mention goats because if I brought goats to your house and left for about an hour by the time I came back all other crisis' would seem slightly pale in comparison to that hour you had just had to go through with goats. Without goats, all things are possible. With comfort a lot more is possible.

 Comfort can sometimes help you gather the perspective that can be reeling out madly like a large fish on a thin fishing line.

  We often feel guilty in our comfort. I think because often we don't feel we deserve it maybe?
Well we do. I do. You do. Maybe you need a bit of comfort today. A time to tell yourself you have worth, you are special and you are loved.
Cause ya are
xo