Breathe

   Another grey morning. I know, it really affects me though! Honestly, there has been maybe one sunny day in about two months! I forget what blue looks like up there behind that curtain of grey.  Sometimes I see the clouds like the softest filmiest scarf on the mountains and behind them the deep dark green of the trees arrayed. It is breathe catching in its beauty and it helps me for a moment. The mountains look a winter sad blue most days though. The snow line is beautiful and low and the air is cold, but the rain!!! It needs to stop!

  My children are sick again. We just finished antibiotics. We are in the midst of moving. What a lonely time moving is. I feel like in days past moving was a time when people banded together but now unless you have that village around you it is a slog. I have done much packing but there is much more to do. Our new house needs work in order for us to fit well and so that has been started. My husband and I seem to be having issues with communication which is nothing new so last night a large hole in a wall happened on purpose but it was not in the completely right place. A wire was cut unnecessarily and the list goes but but it felt like it was the end of the world for a few moments and it wasn't. There are two walls framed so far, a hall way has its first coat of paint, there are cabinets taken out along the one wall of the kitchen and like I said, a big hole in that same wall. We can only work at nights and the people moving out were TWO DAYS LATE moving out. When those two days were supposed to be a majority of the time you had to renovate that is a very big deal. So we are scrambling. Anyway it is all for good things. We love this new home and we love how we will fit better. We are just in the MIDST of it all.

  That is the important thing to remember when you are overwhelmed and feeling hopeless. You are IN it. Sometimes you need to step out, step back, look it over from the outside and take a couple minutes. You will make it through because unless you choose not to,  you always do.
It is one step at a time, one moment at a time, and it is one breath at a time. That breathe, in your nose, filling your lungs, out your mouth and over again.
You can do this
You really can
XO