As I feel overwhelmed lately with having children indoors a lot and having my husband away a lot and the pressures of every day life ever surrounding I have been overly emotional. I have been yelling, using language I have never used in front of my children, I have been totally crazy some days. What to do? It is me myself and I. I have to figure out how to push through this. Through the summer and the fall I had someone coming to work out with me three days a week. That conversation and kindness from my trainer, that movement of my body, that being outside amongst the trees and in the rain or crisp morning air did so much for me! I had energy and happiness and I felt encouraged and good about myself. Now I am not doing so well as my trainer is not coming anymore.
There are a couple things I am gleaning from this. It is so important to remember how I felt when I was working out with my trainer. My self worth was higher. I felt like I was taking care of myself. I felt hopeful and I felt like I cared about my body. This felt so nurturing to me. Right now I am lacking nurture in a big way. How to nurture myself consistently when everyone around me wants my nurture? I need to be able to give and not from emptiness. Also getting outside even for half an hour a day makes a big difference in every person. We need to be outside every day for more than two minutes. I also know that as pressure builds I am going to try to be more self aware and take more time outs to slow down and try to process. Such great intentions ~ haha, we shall see how I do.
November's end is nigh. December is upon us and with that the end of another year. The end of another year! Oh that I can treasure each day and let the good and the hard form me well.
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