Christmas is almost here! We got our tree back in November and it has been in our house a month. It has died and is a much lighter green than when it started out! Also the tree has been 'redecorated' a couple times by certain individuals. It looks pretty funny. I will be taking it down much earlier than usual! As tonight is the night before Christmas Eve it is after 9:00 and my children are all still awake. They have been tucked in, some multiple times, had their epsom salts baths and were given magnesium but the excitement is just too high! How have your Christmas preparations gone for you? This year mine have been a mix of fun finding the perfect treasures and stress and anxiety as the tasks often seem immense and too much for one person to do. I know a lot of my friends are feeling the same weight. They are mothers. They want Christmas to be special but often that seems to mostly rest on their shoulders. For whatever reasons there are not grandparents involved in ways that lift the pressure. The help of grandparents in a young familie's life is completely priceless. During holidays when that presence is not available it is felt so deeply by mothers who are trying to create beautiful memories and moments for their children. This year I really felt aware of my choices and how much I was doing. I felt like this year I needed to sacrifice a lot of myself for my family for many reasons. It has been well worth it but hard. I heard a little message today that reminded me that even when things change and times are harder some years than others that Jesus never changes and even if we have people missing in our lives Jesus is not. I loved that. I want to hold that close.
A little side note:
I am so wanting to post so many pictures and things on my blog but something has happened with our server and whenever I try to upload pictures it says that the server has been rejected. I need to call our Internet provider and try to get this fixed but there has just not been the time as calling them can mean hours on the phone on hold. I am sorry if you are checking my blog and nothing new is here! I miss writing.
Tomorrow on Christmas Eve our family does not have too many things we do tradition wise. However something that DOES happen is that we do a little family Christmas draw. That means each child has gone out and bought a gift for someone else in the family. This brings much excitement. They are so excited to go pick the gift, wrap it, and give it. Also unwrapping a gift on Christmas Eve is something they so look forward to. My four year old decided he wanted to get his eight year old sister a diamond! We have a twenty dollar limit with this gift draw so a real diamond wasn't in the cards for him. However she will be recieving the four year old version of a diamond. He can't keep a secret so she already knows :)
This week we have baked and brought the results along with cards to our neighbors. My husband and I attended a Christmas party. We don't go out much and so this was really quite special. I had such a lovely time. This week I have had times of wild tears, my body melting with exhaustion, and then there are such bright beautiful moments that give me strength to keep on going.
I hope you have a Merry Christmas and there are bright beautiful moments that give you strength and keep you going,
Love Tansy
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