November Joy

 It is craft fair season :)

My favorite part about November!

This year has been especially poignant as covid caused some complications in this area the last few years and this year things feel almost normal. 

I have attended four craft fairs this month! My children have come to all of them with me and at one of them all five of my children were there! It was so special. At the first craft fair I went to I found the one tiny ceramic vase among all multiple hundred vendors and brought it home with me. At the second craft fair I found the most beautiful glass creation that I have been looking for for a long time. I was so overjoyed. At the next craft fair, I found bees wax candles galore and the kindness of strangers to warm my heart for a long time. One vendor worked feverishly to finish a tiny dog that my little one wanted but was not quite finished. Another vendor gave my son an incredible deal on a custom knife and also trusted him to take the knife home and pay him later! There was such deep kindness from strangers. I found so many treasures I wished to take home. The last craft fair was a totally unique experience. My son got to make a wooden sword with his aunty and we experienced a 'cookie forest' and saw the most incredible and beautiful hand made Waldorf creations. At each craft fair, there were other moments as well. Like my little one crying very loudly over something she could not have, or my stroller wheel not working, or my son having a panic attack (both sons having panic attacks actually), or being wet and cold, and also just realizing that with my new 'celiac disease status' that many baked goodies are now not the best choice for my body (this realization hit especially hard at a craft fair for some reason).

It's life you know ~ there is this incredible beauty, creativity, wonder and joy mixed in with pain and heartache and sickness and panic. Holding it all, juggling it, seeing it, and just going with it is both delightful and the hardest.

I am grateful for this month. There have been some big highs and joys and some deep lows and heartache. I'm here for it. 

xo