Homeschool Year 2024

 I homeschool my children. Every year it feels like a burden I can't shake. I care so deeply about their education but them acquiring this education feels extremely complicated to me. My children all have various learning challenges. Dyslexia and ADHD and strong personalities seem to add up to learning not being this sit and learn situation. Every moment of homeschool life feels hard to me. It feels like a very large challenge I can't overcome. Each day I face with dread. It is really hard.

I remind myself ~ I have not signed up for an easy life.

I am not looking for an easy life.

I have such a deep deep fear of failing my children on all levels. Their educations matters so much to me and yet you can't force someone to learn! My oldest child graduated with honour from homeschool but had no desire for further education. 

My next child is going to graduate in May. It has been such a journey with him and most of it has been incredibly challenging. He has only attended Kindergarten in a brick and mortar school. I have not been alone on the journey and have had much support and amazing tutors along the way. This year, however, we have a tutor for  a mere two hours a week. This means that this last year of his education rests almost solely on my shoulders and I am buckling under the weight because I care so deeply. I want him to be able to not just tread water but swim with confidence, not just fall out of the nest but jump and fly with strength! These are choices he has to make and I often forget that. He is inching his way to the end though. He has an exam next week, and a first aid course next month, and the fact that he has the confidence to do either of these things is such a victory. He will graduate and there were times when this did not seem like it would be able to happen. This is going to be such a massive moment for both him and I. Right now though, October 2024, I am struggling. I am feeling like I can't make it to May. I will, I must, but homeschooling is hard. 

That's all

I also am homeschooling children in grade nine, grade seven, grade five and kindergarten and I have a nursing one year old.

What a year!

I am so so thankful that before this school year started I was in Germany being absolutely overcome with delight and beauty. 

May is going to be a very blessed month.

I can do hard things

I am doing hard things.

Go me