I am dedicating this to my friend Shanda.
Her and I met as babies in church. We went to school together and we would bring our rabbits over to each others houses to play together. However we both moved away from our mutual town and disconnected. When we were twenty years old we ended up randomly living together in a house where we reconnected. Living there brought about us becoming such close friends. At that time her boyfriend was living in Jamaica and mine was living in Africa and we both wracked up huge phone bills. We both ended up marrying those boyfriends. When we lived at this house together I slept in the living room on a couch and she had the bedroom. The living room had a wood stove in it that 'heated' the house which meant that I was boiling hot and she was freezing cold ever night. Sometimes we'd switch sleeping spots. We didn't really have money and we were both students. There was a key board in the living room where I slept and sometimes I'd play piano for her and we'd just be. There were four children in the house we lived in on and one big dog and it was a super tiny house so it would be a snatched moment of quiet if everyone was out. It would always feel super special. I sometimes miss those days but only because Shanda was near me. For twelve years we have lived far apart and have only seen each other a handful of times but we keep in touch pretty faithfully.
I would have to say that she understands me on some of the deepest levels anyone ever could as we have have traveled some similar paths in life. Some days I so badly wish I could just sit down and have a cup of tea with her while our children play. So far that has happened about three times since we both have had children. I miss her a lot and every time I talk to her I feel renewed and totally validated. It's amazing. I don't know what the future holds but I do hope that at some point it holds us being neighbors for a while. It would be pretty amazing. So Shan ~ here is to us meeting again that year before the rest of our lives began. We had no clue what was coming. We had so many stars in our eyes and yet we didn't. We just had a lot of hope. Here is to never losing that hope and to keeping on pursuing what we know is vital to our souls and for our children's futures. Love ya xo
Pour down on me
Freedom melody
Cascade and drench me
In your song
I've been mired in failure
Tied up and broken
I'm ready to fight now
To be truely undone
Wading into
A river of healing
Dunking my head
Baptism of grace
Dancing under
A storm of deliverance
Freedom melody
Pour down on me
Sink past my skin
Through all that has held back
Saturate every part that is me
Fill up my spirit
So I'm overflowing
Freedom melody
Pour down on me
❤️❤️❤️
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