Today went quite well for me. My sister moved in with us a little while ago and after she moved in I had a bit of an emotional break down. I had been trying to be strong for a long time and I was so tired. The last few days I have felt a bit of a shift from oh so done to maybe I can keep going now. I never really feel like the choice is mine because I am a mom. No matter how tired or upset or bad I feel things are I have to stick around and keep on keeping on. So that is what I do.
Anyway today was just a day. That was nice. I took my oldest to school in the morning, then my mom took my two middle children to the library and my sister took the baby and I took a meal to my friend as she had a baby a while ago. It was nice to go somewhere and talk to someone without having to intercept a busy baby every moment. I could almost talk normally and semi focus. When I came home it was time to make lunch and do dishes and get the children outside. So I got boots on the baby and the eight year old wore shorts and flip flops and the five year old wore a yellow minion shirt and some pants and out we went. I cleaned out the bunny cage and they fought mostly but there was no blood so I felt like it was, well it was manageable. The baby happily tromped around in his boots and ate dirt. After outside time I dropped the two middles off at a drama class and picked up the oldest. It was then time to start dinner and get the oldest focused on homework. The days just go like this and I keep looking out my windows and just loving the sun and how it hits the mountain or the glimpse of church steeples I see, or the hint of fall color from a neighbors tree.
I picked up the middles after their class. Their teacher was in tears because she felt like the class had gone so badly and because my oldest son has such extreme anxiety I was able to tell her she was doing something majorly right as he happily goes to class every Tuesday and I dont have to stay. It is so amazing to have this a part of my week. We went home and I got my sister and my oldest and myself making dinner and the two middles watching Paw Patrol and the baby was doing what babies do at times like these. Daddy came home and that is always a moment of glee for all the children :) Our dinner time was insane. I dont usually make dinner but this night we had the first salad in about a year, some steak, mashed sweet potato and peas. The baby ended up throwing a lot of his on the floor, the five year old had to be spoon fed every bite and the eight year old who usually doesn't eat was trying to take meat from others plates. It was so noisy and crazy. We all got through and then the children were insane. So out they went into the dark to run and scream and let off steam. This resulted in my five year old actually falling asleep around seven. Usually this one is up until about ten and so to have that break tonight is amazing!!! Now if only the baby would fall asleep! I have some of the dishes done and part of the living room cleaned up but the rest of the house is a disaster and it always is. Today my eight year old only had one anxiety attack and the baby had two short naps. I managed to feed everyone three meals and I didn't feel completely overwhelmed and exhausted all day. Yay :) I hope no matter how hum drum or totally crazy your day was you had some super lovely moments.
Wow - this day remember it. Pull it out and look at it. It sounded fantastic. I love you.
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