When I read this the other day I started to cry. I know I am not all that weird or different. There are many like me. However finding that quote on that day just spoke to my very being. I do love folks and things better than most or just with more intensity? This is why so much also hurts me deeply and so many times I have not understood why. Obviously the more you care, the more deeply you feel, the more the pain as well. So now I understand. I have learned over the years that the pain doesn't physically stop my heart but it sure hurts. The happiness hurts as well because I feel it so much.
When I walk down a quiet country road with Daisy meadows all around, cows happily feasting on the rich grass, sheep throatily calling in the background, birds singing and swooping, the mountain so proud and tall as a back drop...my heart hurts because it is so beautiful. I feel such gratitude, such blessing, such a oneness with it all. And then when there is loss or someone is going through pain I can barely handle how much they are hurting. It is staggering.
The more I comprehend it, get it, embrace this about myself hopefully the more grace I have when it takes me longer than others to recover from whatever I need to recover from.
It is good to just be yourself you know? To see that who you are has value and validity.
A gurgling creek is thrilling to me, a fern unfurling is something I want to just fill my soul with ~ I could take pictures all day every day. However at the same time I have so much hurt that fills me as well. I feel it all. It just does not turn off and that is hard to manage and balance.
If this is you as well ~ you might like to read books by LM Montgomery. She really understood this type of personality and her writing calls to that sort of sensitive precious heart. Every time I read her books I feel fuller.
Have a lovely Wednesday xo Love Tansy
Every one of these pictures "hurt my heart" in the best way possible. Xo
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