Looking Back

  Here I am in the later part of the afternoon of an absolutely glorious day. This year is almost over and last night my husband and I ended up talking a bit about how this last year in our lives actually went. The conversation started because he was writing out some goals for himself for the coming year (There is a lot of power in actually writing out goals for yourself and having them somewhere visible). I was looking at my blog as he was talking to me and started showing him pictures of all the things he had accomplished last year in our life. We sat there afterwards feeling in awe that we had made it through.

  We started the new year having just moved into a home that we were extensively renovating while living in it. He had also just started a new very high stress job and one that was something he had never done before. I had also just found out I was expecting and was sick immediately. The year started out with such intensity. All the children were sick for months, the house was torn apart upstairs and down, we felt like we were drowning. We were in the thick of it just trying to get through each day not realizing then how much we had going on at the time. Now looking back we are just glad we got through it with the amount of scars that we did. We are okay. We are through. Looking back we were in awe of all that happened and was accomplished. I ended up losing our sweet baby, my husband managed to get the whole house renovated, he managed to keep his job, and on a site where last year at this time not one building stood there are now over eighty, the children are all homeschooling now, we are settled in, my body has recovered from its loss and we are forging ahead.

  There is so much good in the looking back and seeing the truth in what was actually going on. It can take the sting out of the scars. Life is hard for everyone! There are no exceptions. Every one's lives are their own unique experience and they see it through their lenses. We had so many wonderful memories to take away from this year. We are looking forward to a new year with a house that is mostly finished. We are looking forward to life with four children all a year older and that much more capable. We are looking forward to my husband being more confident in his role in his job and the same for me.

  We didn't get through this year on our own. We had family and friends that held us up through each hard moment. We had our faith to hold us up as well.

  If you were part of that team of people that make up our foundation ~ thank you. Any good in life comes from true relationship, from true caring hearts. Your caring hearts that held us up and got us through were not taken forgranted. We so appreciate you. We are thankful to have arrived at this time of year stronger, more aware, and hopeful. God bless you so ~

Tansy