A few months ago I attended a funeral and at that funeral I saw some people I had once loved very very much. I had not seen them in years however but at this funeral they were all there. In going to the funeral I felt trepidation as to how the experience may be. Would I feel a connection still? Would there be hurt or anger there? I feel like I walked in with an open heart. With in a minutes of going in I heard my name called in such a familiar voice and looked up to see a dear face that as I said I once loved so dearly (this was not a romantic love but a sisterly love). I looked into such familiar eyes and recognized the facial expression instantly. I said only a few words and we didn't really talk again. However there was so much said in that one glance. There was so much I knew!
It reminded me of how the eyes are the window to the soul and how connection with people is so powerful and how to those who are extra sensitive and perceptive to other people in many respects always carry that connection in them. It takes so much work to let the connection go and try to move on. I have often felt so odd inside of my skin because I care so deeply for people. I get to know not just them but their families. When they move on from me (because it often is them moving on not me) I go through deep grief and it can take years to let the connection go! It can be so deeply painful.
This glance from this one soul that I had loved many years ago reminded me of so much. I wished to gather them in my arms but it was not the time or place and that relationship had passed on.
God bless them,
God bless me
And God bless you
xo
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