Count Your Blessings

Count your many blessings
Name them one by one
Count your many blessings
See what God has done
Count your blessings
Name them one by one
Count your many blessings
See what God has done

I remember singing this song years ago and it has been going around in my head lately. I struggle ~ a lot. There are so many factors that come to play here but I struggle with feeling overwhelmed, tired, like a failure, eternally messy and not able to keep up with my job (mothering and housekeeping and homeschooling) and the list continues.
I often give in to deep feelings of loneliness and fear. The fears are endless...money fears, fears about the outcomes of my parenting, fears about my marriage, about relationships, and I am sure you get the drift.
How I try to counter this sometimes...sometimes...IF I remember~

Is to count my blessings

It is so easy to go onto my sister's Instagram account (ahem...sorry sis!) because I don't have one, or go on Facebook and see all the others' pictures. They look so beautiful, so elegant. Their houses look so pretty and so fresh. They went on holidays???AGAIN??? and the list goes on and in my heart that loneliness and fear just grows. I grow frantic in my house feeling like because I am not really involved in anything and I am just a housewife...I am losing everything. I am losing my validity. I am losing my youth. I am losing losing losing.

And so I need to stop and count my blessings

No matter what is happening in your life there are blessings and you MUST CHOOSE to see them. This is a heart matter. Take a second and inspect your heart and your mind. What thoughts are you entertaining. Out of the heart the mouth speaks right?

So your blessings?

What are they?

Do you have a husband who adores you?
Do you have a child(ren) who adores you?
Do you have a lovely space to live in?
Do you have a space to live in at all?
Do you have some pretty dishes you like to eat off of?
Do you have a gift someone gave you that really spoke to you that you treasure?
Has a flower bloomed that you can see out your window?
Is the sky blue?
Can you hear little birds out your window?
Do you have a job that is helping with the bills?
Or does your husband have a job that is helping pay the bills?
Do you have a dear friend?

My blessings list is immense once I get started. One of the big blessings I am thinking about right now..... is the fact that none of my teeth have fallen out yet. I have a sneaky suspicion that my teeth are not my own for much longer. The bone loss has been pretty bad lately and so every day that they all stay in one piece is a BLESSING! My two year old is pretty sure he has a loose tooth because his older sister has been losing teeth and in the mornings he gets me to check if his 'loose' tooth has fallen out yet....and I check and tell him no...and then I just sort of check mine and breath a sigh of relief.
So you see, it doesn't have to be ridiculous like...
I am thankful for that Cruise
I am thankful for our new car
I am thankful for this perfect house

NOPE
It can...I am thankful for the blessing of teeth right now
Heck
Back in my old house if my toilet flushed the first time I was not taking it forgranted.
Right now my dishwasher is not working and hasn't been for weeks
So I am so thankful for the hot water that comes out of that tap. If I had to heat the water for all those dishes I'd be losing my mind!! Oh and now that I'm getting going don't get me started about how grateful I am for my clothes washing machine. That beast is my hero.

And I am writing this to remind myself.....

To count my blessings

And to NAME THEM ONE BY ONE

Seriously sit down and write a list
If your mind tries to take you to a dark place
Tell it to shut up just for once
And keep that light on in your heart or let those blessings be the light switch
And keep writing your blessings one by one!!!!!
There are some
I promise
Find em
Write em

And be blessed by what God has done for you. He loves you!!!
xo


          Check out these blessings....especially their footwear. Love these gems so much!!!

Do you see this floor and the color of the kitchen cabinets? This kitchen blessed my socks off and it was so crazy ugly..yellow walls will probably cause small shudders in me for the rest of my life..at least this yellow with that blue...BUT when I was there, in those moments... I was so glad for it all. So if you don't have a white and hot blue plasticy type floor...you are blessed :)