Life At One

   You can almost see the piano keys now. When you first played you had to stand on your very tip toes and you could only play with the tip of your finger. We were all eating dinner and all of  a sudden we heard one note on the piano being gently played over and over and we all looked over and there you were. You were SO proud and your eyes were so big. It was your proudest accomplishment of your life at that moment I think. Then, when you were able to sit on the piano bench by yourself and play, instead of banging on the keys, you gently played them individually and you moved your body to your music. Often you walk around singing to yourself or to us. Your dancing is pretty awesome too. It is so funny how you move your hands when you dance or hear music.
   Your mind is so busy. You switch from thing to thing so quickly. Like right now you are emptying out a drawer of the desk throwing CD's with wild abandon. Now you are trying to put one in the computer, now you are spitting on them. You found a rubber chicken in the drawer so you gave it a try but it tasted yucky. Now you scared yourself by putting a couple CD's in and the computer sort of yelled at you. Recently you started coloring on the walls any chance you get and you are often standing on top of the dining room table. Heights do not scare you. You have been walking since you were just shy of ten months old and your legs are so bowed. You are determined and mischievous, you are loving and fierce, and you are brave. It is so interesting to observe each of my children as they are born ~ wondering who they are and what they will be. Slowly I see them come alive. They are sensitive, artistic, energetic, they are persistent and thoughtful, the list goes on.
   You little one, your smile is so engaging. Your dimples are adorable. Your teeth are all chipped and it just adds to who you are. You love buttons on anything. You were my first child to call 911. You play with the pots in the cupboards and the tupperware more than you play with anything else, and you are waiting for that magical day when you will be able to open the fridge.I think what I have realized is the absolute most magical and whimsical and important part about being an observer and partaker in this life you are discovering is how everything is this crazy adventure when you are only one. You give one hundred percent of yourself to everything you do. Everything blows your mind! Like the fact that you can turn on a light or move a chair or that a bird is singing or a dog is barking or when the cell phone beeps that a text has come in. When you taste something you either love it so much that you enthusiastically make noises that let me know it is absolutely the best thing you have ever had or you literally spit it into my face and scream protest at the disgustingness. Your eyes absolutely glow with happiness and glee about so many things every day. It is the best reminder. I have to know that at one point, even if my personality was not quite the same as yours that life was fun and full and I wanted to touch and taste and see that life was good! Right now you have managed to get a bolt off one of our chairs. Your mind loves to figure things out. There are these moments when I see you discover something for the first time. When you felt rain on your face and you held your hands up and just laughed. Or when you discovered jumping in puddles. It was so adorable because you couldn't really jump but you could sure stamp and so stamp you did in a tiny little puddle. Daddy is your hero. You think about him so many times a day and if you get to call him on the phone your joy is uncontainable. You can't talk to him but you laugh and laugh and scream and it reminds me how much we are to love and celebrate others!
  It is sad when this starts to shift. When you realize that there is unkindness and it hearts your heart, when the sparkle goes out of your eyes little bit by little bit and when the hard things harden your innocence. Life is like this. It can't be helped. But right now your are so innocent and you are safe and you are loved and everything is to be discovered. You are one. It is so beautiful and I am so honored to be a part of it.