January 1st 2016

 
So how was your FIRST day of this brand spankin New Year? My night and day were sort of melded into one as my baby didn't really sleep last night. So when midnight had arrived and there were fireworks going off, pans being banged, people screaming and cheering, guns being fired and the like....I opened my back door, stepped out into the cold and let others excitement wash over me. I was glad to hear people screaming and cheering in the New Year. It filled me with hope.
   I got through another night. I have scratches on my face from when I was so tired I couldn't get up in time to start nursing him quickly enough and he just attacked me. However the day dawned clear and sparkling. The children were excited to face another day. I ended up cleaning my bedroom. This was a long time coming. It has been a disaster for months. Somehow this New Years Day and the sun streaming through the window helped and it took me a long time but I have it now vacuumed and the surfaces dusted and some of the clutter cleared out. It feels amazing.
Today as a family we also went to a place we have come to love more this last year than ever. I used to go there when I was little with my grandparent. My grandma would pack a picnic lunch and we would go and have fun. It is a beautiful wetlands area and the mountain views are amazing, the expanse of water beautiful, and signs of wild life are everywhere. Today the water was all frozen and the paths snowey. It was cold! It ended up being a bit of a disaster as my eight year old had a serious melt down. I think he was too cold and instead of being able to tell us that with is words so we could help him his body just went into shut down mode. My feet were going totally numb and the other children were getting upset about one thing or another so we ended up hoofin it back to the lovely van that we own and getting donuts and driving to look at the structure of a bridge because that is something my eight year old is supposed to learn about. When we came home I cleaned more and made dinner. It was partially a disaster because the five year old's goal in life is to make dinner time as dramatic and horrible for us all as possible right now. The baby also will not stay off the table and often I end up in tears or feeling super angry. So we got through that and now my friend is coming over for a while. For the last couple years we have tried to get together on New Years to talk about goals and pray over the year. Then night will come again and I will be trying to keep being kind as I wish for sleep that does not come.
  I hope your first fresh day of this year was a good one. Life is never perfect but it is what we make it! I think all in all my husband and I made this a pretty good day. It was just a reality with four little children kind of day :) They are treasures and they will be filling up every moment of my year ~ So here we go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!