Love You So So Much

  Cute things children say. If you are a mother I bet you have a bushel of cute sayings tucked away that you remember. My mother used to tell me stories of things I would say that she never forgot. With children the saying, 'out of the heart the mouth speaks' is so true. They don't have much of a filter and they just say whatever they are thinking. One time one of my children described running around naked feeling like 'a pig out of its gate.' I have been told when I am pregnant that I look like a 'huge huge airplane.' Of course I have hundreds more. But really they only sound super cute when you hear them out of the child's mouth and you know the child so if you are their mom....That being said I wont quote more.
  I have been having a hard last couple days. It is mostly hormonal and when my hormones are off then anything I struggle with in general, and usually can keep a handle on, just feels like crushing weights and I just want to struggle like a maniac throwing them all off. I can never seem to quite do that. So this week has been a battle. This morning my little girl snuggled into bed with me and just started to stroke my back. She said, 'Mommy I love you so so so so so much, and even if one day you don't like me very much I will always love you.' It was all I needed. I just needed to feel like someone loved me no matter what. I needed to feel like I was more than just a body in this house that does things for people and that if I don't do things for people then I basically have no worth.

 In that moment I felt so loved.

If you are in the house today or sitting at work, and it is grey and raining outside, and if you have been feeling lonely and unseen, if you heart feels overwhelmed and tired, if you just want to feel loved and like you matter ~ I KNOW you matter and I know you are loved. It is hard to FEEL it sometimes but the truth of the matter is quite simple: We just do matter and we just are loved. We need to tell that to ourselves and to live it out to ourselves and others. I was thinking that today I need to do something for myself that shows me that I matter to myself. It might sound weird but I know it will help. I hope you are okay out there. I hope you are making it through. I hope on the harder days you have many moments where someone tells you in whatever way you can hear that you are so so so so so loved and no matter what you do you always will be. xo