Baby and Mommy

  At every birthday but especially the first few I feel a sense of surprise that I have made it this far. It is such a struggle every time for me with my new babies. They are very colicky, they don't sleep well for years and they are just not all around contented and peaceful babies. Every time I get pregnant I know exactly what is going to happen and I hope and pray for the best but each time my babies have acid reflux, tongue ties and you name it and things are always a challenge. So, with that being said, at every  one of their birthdays I feel like I have just conquered another year. All through each year I do my absolute best and I do well. I try and try and I just do what I can and it is enough but it is hard. So so hard. This year as my baby turns two I am so thankful that my life has changed A LOT. For the first time in years I am sleeping for at least four hour stretches a night but often it is more like six. I am feeling different, better, well. Sleep is miraculous and I am so thankful to be in this place.  So cheers to me and to him and another year we have all made it through!

In honor or our mile stone I actually did my hair which has gotten the longest it has ever been in my entire life.

So here goes another year. By next August I will have a twelve year old, a six year old, a ten year old and baby will be turning three. It is going to be crazy and fun!! xo