Cheery People

  There are people in life who are more cheery than others. They remind me of sunshine or those little sweet flitting birds that just sing and sing all day. They just sort of emanate sunshine as they go about their day. I really REALLY love those kinds of people...and I am not one of those people.... not at all. It sucks. If I am ever laughing just a bit...my family knows I am not feeling well. I literally laugh when I am sick and feverish. Other than that I don't laugh all that often. Why is this? Why am I like this? I WANT to feel happy and I want to be a ray of sunshine. What is it? I really don't know. I have thought of all sorts of answers. None of those answers changes the struggles. However even in feeling how I feel I am thankful. Even in feeling all the angst I know truth. I hope that if you struggle with anxiety, emptiness, sadness, overwhelm...and all the other things that seem to crowd into every day...I hope you also feel joy when it is needed most, and that you feel hope.
Hope is what fuels me, and Jesus. He helps me through everything.
Sending you lots of love today
Love Tansy

 This is my cousin and my sister.....both full of life and laughter. I love them dearly and am so thankful for their sunshine in my life..