Hobbies

   The other day my son was expounding on his hobbies and his sister's hobbies and his little brother's hobbies but in the way that he was saying he didn't really know WHAT they had has hobbies. I told him a whole list of interest of each child and he was quite amazed. Then I started to think to myself of, if asked, what my children would say I was interested in. I imagined the list would be...washing dishes, vacuuming, folding laundry, brushing people's teeth, going on Instagram and that would probably be the extent of their list. Through the years I had hobbies and interests and for the last couple years nothing has really appealed to me ~ unless sleep could be a hobby. That would appeal to everything within me. I have been so drained. It might sound ridiculous to say but lack of sleep makes all of life seem quite overwhelming and grey. Doing anything creative seems impossible. Even carrying on decent conversation that has any sort of interest seems like too much effort.

  However, a girl has moved onto our property and she is reminding me by how she lives her life, that at one time in life I had things I loved to do as well! So I have been thinking about sewing myself a linen dress or skirt. I have fallen in love with linen over a random series of events. I found a linen dress in Winners last year and bought it and it immediately got ripped in the wash and I wore it anyway. It was just such a breathable wonderful fabric in the heat of Summer. A couple months ago I found another linen dress at a store and purchased it. I adore it. It has just got me thinking how much I'd love to sew something myself. I have not sewn for a lot of years now. The last time I tried to do this I tried to sew two skirts and failed miserably. It was another moment when I had only two children I think and I wanted to feel creative. No skirts ever were made although parts of them were, and this time I want to sew something to completion. I have pretty much zero confidence in sewing but my oldest daughter has every confidence in the world and the girl that has moved in with us also has confidence so I figure between the three of us I may be able to produce something wearable.

  I feel like doing something like this will be a huge boost of confidence. I deeply deeply admire those who honor their creativity and put time and energy into their hobbies. I also see how inspiring it is and that it is something that has to be constantly worked on.

  I will keep you updated. I probably wont brave a fabric store with all four children in tow. I have attempted it before and all the color and texture is wildly stimulating to the senses. It ended with two little people wildly running and laughing through the beauty unable to contain themselves and I was red faced trying to capture one then the other to safely escape. I kind of vowed that that would never happen again. SO....I will probably try to get away one weekend with just my oldest.

  If you are at a place where hobbies are just a normal beautiful part of your life...you are blessed. If you are like me and trying to come back to a place where you feel like one simple hobby might not put you into the grave...bless you!!

  Love from Tansy ~