Wednesday in the Sun

  Snow fell on the mountains last night. I woke up to ice on the windshield and the mountains looking regal in their capes of white. My daughter needed to get to school a bit earlier to practice her dance for the Christmas pageant and my son had to go to a dentist appointment that his dad had to take him to at 6:30am. It has been grey and dreary for days here. I am so thankful for this sunshine and the clear sky today. It is so easy to take little things forgranted. Yesterday I was given a reminder that in order to 'change' the state of my brain and my thoughts I need to surround myself in gratefulness. I need to be grateful in that moment. I need to not be grateful just in general but be grateful for whatever is happening in that moment that I put aside to focus on this no matter what is happening. It was a good day to start that again. I have a prism in my window to remind me of the glad game in the book Pollyanna. I have other little things to remind me of how far I have come and I am surrounded by blessing but I still often feel overwhelmed and down and completely void of creativity. I was supposed to set the timer today every couple hours and take a bit of time to focus inwards on my gratefulness. In this moment I am grateful for the warm blue winter coat my little one year old is wearing. It was given to us by a sweet friend. I am grateful for my babies red cheeks and bright blue eyes that can see. I am grateful for my husband who drove my anxious eight year old to the dentist today and took the morning off work. I am grateful that when my son has an anxiety attack I am feeling more and more able to manage without going into an anxiety attack myself. I am grateful for the spirit my little five year old has. She is so confident and bold. I am grateful for this house we are in and I am warm and safe in it right now. The power of the spirit of gratefulness is not to be denied. It is transformitive.