My hormones are killin it right now. Like if they were on a vendetta to take over my life they would be winning and I would be crumpled on the ground white flag held up in surrender asking for mercy. Okay maybe that is what I am doing right now for real because I think they ARE on a vendetta against me. My theories and negotiations with myself so I can keep sane are...'well maybe they are so bad because I am still nursing but I am not nursing much.' 'Maybe it is because the seasons are changing (I am grasping at straws but I am desperate).' 'Maybe it is because I am doing a totally different diet and am burning some fat and killing off candida? This would mean my liver is overloaded and so my hormones are screwed.'
Whatever the case may be I am feeling prreetty cruddy and there is nothing I want more than to just go and hang out with a friend. Someone who gets this, who really gets it. I want to eat good food, maybe try to forget how much work there is to do every day to keep up, and feel somewhat care free just for a couple hours.
My husband is home today. He came home from his two week course after doing an exam for six hours and before he came home he found out he passed. Now I am not sure of this but I think that he probably got the highest mark on this test that he has ever gotten in his entire life because he got an A. I am SO proud of him (and so relieved because he really had to have this course passed for his new job)!!!! So he is home and he is taking all the children swimming. Is he a hero? I would say yes.
The other thing I thought of today that would help me feel like life was worth living...was doing a bit of work outside to my house. I have not done gardening for months. I want to add a bit of color to my front porch and it isn't much but I thought it would help me through. So my husband decided that was a great plan and he is going to help me...
Why blog this? It is real life, the reality. Hormones really are intense. I am trying to fight through it and be somewhat calm and not totally crazy, emotional, and irrational....Writing helps me process and helps me hold on for another day.
I hope you have a good weekend. The first Saturday of Fall :) Live it up!! We have lots to look forwards to ~ minus the hormones. xo
How are your hormones now? I've realized how powerful they can be since having Samara because of that crazy 2 weeks where they completely took over and I felt all the feels and then some!!! I hope you're feeling more normal! I'm going to put the sugar away, freeze my cakes and detox. Xoxo
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