Five Years

  There is a harmonica playing somewhere in my house right now. A tea party just went awry much to my six year olds chagrin and mine too I guess since I had just cleaned the dining room and it was all for nought. There are rogue pieces of Monopoly all over the play room floor and the game box is torn. Stuffed animals, large painted rocks, a bathroom foot stool, a sparkly velvet black jacket, a doll with a neck tie, puzzle pieces and a glue stick are just some of the many things I see right now that someone needs to pick up at some point. I can hear the water running as my sister is home from work and suffering from the kiss of too much sun so she is trying different remedies to ease the burn. The ten year old just finished watching Australia's 72 Most Dangerous Animals and taking pictures of the animals on screen and writing their names down. He is planning a trip there in five years with our family. Five years. Things are happening so quickly now. In five years my oldest will be eighteen and my ten year old will be fifteen. However I only have today. As I struggle with my usual tiredness and loneliness or whatever the heck it all is I just want to remember today is all I have. I need to gather myself back together, take some deep breaths and do all that needs to be done to make this home feel like the blessing that it is. I write to encourage and remind myself. I am sorry if it gets annoying. I hope whoever reads this ~ wherever you are ~ that you are okay and that you are feeling like you can keep going and that you are doing the best you can.
Love Tansy