'White Sanity Wine'

So I am loving blogging right now. It's new and its inspiring because I do really love to write. I have a baby that is not yet a year and three other busy children of various ages and I don't get much sleep. Usually my brain is hovering between, 'I need sleep' and, 'I need a break.' In between those thoughts are, 'What the heck to feed them NOW?' and 'I need to do ANOTHER load of laundry?'and 'HOW did they trash that room in two seconds?' There is the silent cursing I do as I clean poo off yet another surface and the constant reminders to my darlings.... 'HE IS A BABY!!! HE is DELICATE!! He is NOT a TOY'. Lastly there is my favorite. It is summer and we have been having a heat wave. I have the air conditioner in the living room on and all day I am saying (ahem, yelling), 'Close the door!!!!' I have managed enough self control to not add the word where beavers live but it has been a challenge. Every.single.time. they go out the door they leave it open. Sometimes I swear its a conspiracy. Anyway! you may get the drift that I, at this moment in life, feel pretty consumed with parenting and there are not a lot of creative or inspiring thoughts filling my brain. Sometimes it drives me to the point of drink. I mean literally I want some booze. I am not actually sure why my mind goes there or what I think it will do for my creativity. It probably has nothing to do with creativity and a lot to do with me hoping I'll feel more mellow. However I dont drink so I invented 'white wine' which is ginger ale and apple juice (believe me, I am well aware of how lame this is). The sugar kick gets me through, and sipping it somehow makes me feel like I am taking a moment to myself :) And when the children ask me for some I take a BIT of joy in saying NO.Why? Simply because I have to remind myself that there are perks to being an adult. When I was a child I'm pretty sure I was jealous of my parents freedom. I am pretty sure I whined about the fact they could stay up late and watch the movies they wanted to and eat the treats they wanted to. My children have observed and expressed jealousy about those facts also. My parents never rubbed it in my face. I am not that mature.
 Here I am saying, I can little ones! I sure can, and I am going to do it and love it and maybe rub it in your face the tiniest bit. Reality is, most of my life consists of serving serving serving you lovely souls. There are a lot of times a day where I get treated like a servant and a waitress and its not exactly what I dreamed it all would be like when I was a 'grown up'!
So as I look at this picture I put at the top...first of all it makes me so happy. My two oldest, who often have troubles being at peace with each other, are being extremely creative. Take in the canoe as the swimming pool, the garbage bags in the 35 degree heat, the dollar store nets on their HEADS! They are being amazing, awesome, and living out childhood in all its glory! Meanwhile I am in the house doing dishes. I took that picture and started thinking, while gulping my 'white sanity wine,' I decided (as relationships outside started deteriorating and garbage bags and buckets were becoming weapons) to head outside myself. I had no desire to put a garbage bag on my body OR a net on my head but I did want to go in the canoe. I can have fun beyond ginger ale and apple juice! So out I went and hopped in. Being a child is not easy. I well remember. However being an adult has its own set of challenges also. So here's to us ~ children and adults. Here's to me blogging and to my white sanity wine and creativity and to my children playing and playing all summer long. Cheers :)