Abide

Abide ~ to remain or continue. There is a book that I wish I read more of. I have read it through a couple times in my life and I miss it. I don't read it much anymore. Sometimes when I feel so drained and I don't know where to turn...something from that book comes into my mind and it will be the perfect encouragement for the moment.  John 15:7 ~ 'If you abide in me, and my words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you.' The verses before and after ask us to do the same. To abide, to remain~ to be connected~
 How when we are separate beings we are missing something vital when we don't abide.  We cant live fully. 
What if everything was stripped away. All the aches, the anxiety, the tiredness, everything pulling so intensely, and we just simply tried to abide ~ in connection and love. In communion. 
With the one who created everything you love, everything that inspires you and fills you. If you continued in Him rather than You.
I am often overwhelmed as I have stated many times. Today it has been about my body. I feel super chubby today. None of my pants fit. I keep gaining weight and I am so hungry all the time.It feels like a vicious cycle. I just felt defeated today.  I just got more and more anxious. Every mirror slapped me across the face.
Then I thought about resting in love. I have been reading a book with a friend called 'Becoming Myself' and it is teaching and reminding me of some life giving truths. Abiding in Jesus who just fills us, accepts us, loves us and who knows our hearts is so much more effective and powerful than rules or judgement. Somehow thinking about that helped me release some of the angst. I hope as I head into the weekend ~ tired and drained, with a husband coming home very late on a Friday feeling exactly the same way, I can abide in Jesus, let him fill me, and know that He hears me, he knows what I wish, what I need. He knows what you need too ~

XO